Me: *is actively self destructive*
Also me: I’m actually in a much better place than I used to be
Me: *is actively self destructive*
Also me: I’m actually in a much better place than I used to be
"You have no idea what it’s like in my head."
- (via dirtyboy420)
I thought I was getting better.
"Depression is having to bite your tongue and blink the tears away while your entire family is having the time of their lives. Its being put in an uncomfortable situation for days, yet having no one to comfort you. It’s having a mental breakdown in the car in front of everyone because anger is the only thing that you can express right now other than sadness. It’s having to cry in font of people who expect you to be mature. Because your not a child anymore so you should stop acting like one. Then all while it’s still happening. When you feel like dying it’s having to put on a smile again. Getting out of the car. And then going out to have dinner. Like food is going to help me feel better right now. But I have to eat. I have to smile. I have to pretend to like them. The place I’m in right now mentally it doesn’t mattar to anyone. Act mature…. That’s all that matters, the face you put on. So stop acting like a melodramatic child. Stop being so selfish."
- An unedited rant written about what I’m facing this exact moment. I know when I’m reading this later I’ll be ashamed of my behavior and of my thoughts. But I had to write them down. (via secretdiaryofafatgirl)
"Depression is not a choice"
- (via demons-lives-in-me)